passion

I beg you for nothing

Ask of you nothing
I just stand there
and stare you
up and down.

My lips say nothing
but the slight grin they play
Says everything.
You wash your hands
and you keep looking
back at me.

But I don't move,
Only my eyes glide up and down.
Your dirty white socks,
baggy blue jeans
Your t-shirt,
as it hangs so
loosely off your shoulders
so gently
over your waistline.

As you turn
Look back at me
Your curls bounce around and
Reveal your eye
Into mine and
I grin.

I ask of you nothing
but my eyes how they
Beg for you.
I turn and walk
on down the hall and
You,
you follow.

To the bathroom,
I,
I brush my teeth and
you stand,
over the toilet.
a little uneasy but
you do it anyway,
I see your fingers move
and hear your zipper buzz.

In the mirror,
I brush hard
In the reflection,
I see you
and you glare into my eyes.

I try not to ask for much
and normally thats fine

You zip up and
drop your jaw
just a little
and gaze me through the mirror.

I spit out and
flip up my hair
just enough,
and you grab me at the hips.

But now you don't care.
You don't want me to ask
Beg for it
You say,
beg for it.

You grab me by the heart and
I grab you by the belt.

Fresh

Here I sit,
Room fresh full of flowers,
and the day just before dusk.
I gaze out my window in wonder.
How can a day so dated
hold such a prodigious amount of pigment?
The sun is out of sight,
But its’ light lingers within the trees

Here I ponder,
Among the flowers and their faces,
and their violet glass vases.
From one stem they slither,
And up the trunk they travel,
‘till up at the top, they unravel.
This is where there splendor gets me,
As my eyes follow the stem up’t the flower


They open up,
with their hands to the heavens,
and their eyes to the skies.
They reach ever so gently,
Yet with such a structure, that
their enthusiasm is inevitable.

And I still sit,
Baffled by their beauty,
speculating why I sat here to begin with.
What sufficiency it has caused me,
this moment of study.
My time not corrupted,
Only my mind,
freed.

Waiting..

I just wait here
for what? Everything.
A job to just come to me
and ask me to work for them.
A friend to just come to me
and ask me to hang with them.
A family to just come to me
and take me in with them.
A life to just stop on by
and sweep me off my feet.
A task, obligation, activity
to move me from this seat.

Where has all my motivation gone?
I look back and see myself
with friends and family,
with a job and fellow employees,
with a life to keep me busy
with a love to keep me happy

I feel so lonely now,
bored all the time,
Without,
all the time.

And all my old life lives on without me
Old job still runs
Old faces still laugh
Old friends still hang

I wanna play.

I wanna win.

Missin You

And I feel like I'm lost, and not really here
but when you whisper those words, i just disappear
I feel like you miss all the good things I say,
but no matter how far we drift,
I'll always pray, That our love will endure
whatever they say

And I feel like I miss all the good things you say
And I'll ask why you don't, and you just look away,
In my mind all I see is us in dismay
But your there for me baby, at the end of the day

And I'll do what I can, for this to be real
And I'll do what you want, if it means you'll be here

And I fall to the ground, I just don't know why
That all I can see is love, in your beautiful eyes
You pick me up honey, whenever I'm down
Just here me when I say that
I n e e d y o u r i g h t n o w

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My Tears Dry On Their Own

I'm here because you left me here
And here I sit with no words to say,
no words to think, to think to say.
I'm so ashamed, thought I'd be fine
just agin' here like your favorite wine

You shined through me like the sun,
like the sun when it wakes in the mornin'
now I'm lifeless when you're gone,
like the sun when it takes in the evenin'

I'm anxious cause ya never called
And here I sit with no thoughts to think
no words to peel off these kiss-less lips
So ashamed, thought I'd be alright,
Now I'm waitin' here in the open night

Sing me a song, a little lullaby
Give me a ring, a little kiss goodnight
Bring me to life, a little look won't hurt
Just gimme some love, before ya say goodbye

I'm so afraid, thought I could be strong
Read my lips, and take me along.

"He walks away, the sun goes down
He takes the day, but I'm grown
And it's okay, in this blue shade,
My tears dry on their own."
--Amy Winehouse

- photo by me -